roller coaster

this has been a crazy couple of weeks. just *PLEASE* keep on praying for us, and please know...GOD is good...ALL of the time

also, remember, this is a blog about my pregnancy and for our baby, so there may be some sensitive topics covered. just so you know.

oct. 20. home preganancy tests (three of them) say we are pregnant

oct. 22. primary care physician confirms that i am, indeed pregnant. he estimates i am 5.5 weeks and that my due date is june. 20. i disagreed. i believed i was 4.5 weeks pregnant, and that my due date would be june 28.

oct. 24. my parents come to visit and watch the Bethany College vs. Sterling College game.
oct. 25. i have a terrible back ache. it persists for two days. i worry a little.
oct. 26. i have some bleeding. my little worry grows to a medium-sized, not full-blown worry.

oct. 27. call the ob-gyn to tell him of the situation. he orders a sonogram. nick comes with me. we see a yolk sac and a tiny spec of baby. at this point all of the professionals believe i am about 6 weeks pregnant. at that time, the baby should have developed a heart "flicker." there was no flicker. this caused them concern. that afternoon, the ob-gyn called back and ordered bloodwork immediately to be followed by another round on Wednesday and a follow up appointment.

oct. 29. started my day with bloodwork, and followed that up with an appointment at the ob-gyn. my amazing husband came with me again. unfortunately, the bloodwork, in combination with the sonogram, was inconclusive. the ob said we would have to wait until monday to know more. he scheculed a follow-up sonogram. at my appointment, i told the ob about my opinion that i was not as far along as everyone was predicting. that information seemed to give him hope.

oct. 29-nov. 3. we waited and prayed. it seemed like forever. some moments were better than others, but ultimately, we both knew God had... God HAS... the very best plan for Nick, and me, and our potential family. so we just trusted. we still do...

nov. 3. follow-up sonogram and dr's appointment. well, today, there was, indeed, a heart "flicker." WHAT GREAT NEWS! the tech said I am 6 weeks and 2 days pregnant; just as i thought all along. it was nice someone finally heard me. the obgyn was beaming as he told us the good news, and he said he would see us in three weeks. that will be a nice birthday present.

so, all is well. thank you for your prayers, and, please, keep it up.

hey little hamster. daddy and i love you, and we are so excited to meet you and get to know you . be good in there. i am eating a lot of great food for you, so you can grow big and strong. i will try to exercise too, but i hate that, so i will only do it for you. we have only known about you for two weeks, but you have been a part of our family forever. love you, baby. -mom

Heavenly Father. THANK YOU! thank You for blessing me with a husband who loves You more as much or more than he loves me. thank you for having a plan for our lives that is so much better and more than i could have ever imagined. thank You for Your grace and mercy and love. Thank you for blessing us and entrusting us with this baby. Thank you for hearing prayers and answering them. please, Father, continue to keep this little baby healthy and growing.